Watch the video version at my Youtube Channel. I was sitting in therapy when my therapist said something that stopped me cold. She told me my biggest coping mechanism — the one I had never noticed, the one I had never even considered a coping mechanism — was performance. Not alcohol. Not avoidance. Not anger. Performance. Doing. Staying busy. Checking things off a list so I could feel like I was in control. And she was right. Why Am I Always Busy But Still Anxious? If you hav

Watch a video version at my Youtube Channel. For years I thought the answer was somewhere ahead of me. I spent the first part of my journey dominated by the past. Shame, guilt, regret, and a constant loop of things I wished I had done differently. My anxiety lived there. I was almost entirely in what had already happened, feeling like a victim to it, feeling powerless over myself. Then I started to heal. I learned to look at myself with less judgment. I started accepting who

What if the stillness you've been avoiding — the uncomfortable, uncertain, full-of-mystery stillness — is actually where you connect to something real? I've been sitting with that question a lot lately.