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Watch a video version on my Youtube Channel. What kind of life are you living? Whose life are you living? I spent the better part of thirty years not living my own. From the outside it looked normal, even good. Grow up, go to school, get a degree, get a job, buy a house, start a family, move into a nice neighborhood. I did the things that felt expected of me, without ever asking who was doing the expecting. That's the part that took me the longest to see. I wasn't just living

Watch the video version at my Youtube Channel. There's a line from a Rebelution song that's been sitting with me: don't you know it's you why you're suffering. Said out of context, that sounds harsh. Said with the right context, it might be the most freeing thing you hear this week. Here's the distinction I want to draw out: pain and suffering are not the same thing. Pain is what happens to you. It's inevitable. It's the skinned knee when you're seven and it's the slow realiz

Watch the video version at my Youtube Channel. I was sitting in therapy when my therapist said something that stopped me cold. She told me my biggest coping mechanism — the one I had never noticed, the one I had never even considered a coping mechanism — was performance. Not alcohol. Not avoidance. Not anger. Performance. Doing. Staying busy. Checking things off a list so I could feel like I was in control. And she was right. Why Am I Always Busy But Still Anxious? If you hav

Watch a video version at my YouTube Channel. There is a perspective shift that changed everything for me. It is not complicated. But if you actually apply it, it will change how you respond to every difficult person and every frustrating situation in your life. You can see everyone and everything around you as a mirror. Why Am I So Easily Frustrated and Angry? If you have ever asked yourself why you feel so easily frustrated or why certain people trigger you so consistently,

Watch a video version at my Youtube Channel. For years I thought the answer was somewhere ahead of me. I spent the first part of my journey dominated by the past. Shame, guilt, regret, and a constant loop of things I wished I had done differently. My anxiety lived there. I was almost entirely in what had already happened, feeling like a victim to it, feeling powerless over myself. Then I started to heal. I learned to look at myself with less judgment. I started accepting who

Picture a piece of land. Not a yard. Not a lot. Land. The kind that existed long before anyone thought to do anything with it. Wild grass. Roots running deep. Soil that has been here longer than memory. No fences. No roads. No names for it yet. Just land.